SHE SPEAKS!!!!!

MY MUSE!!!! She is back after a long, long hiatus. I don't know if I will be posting anything for a while, but I will try and update on my progress.

I am excited about this new voice. I think it's going to be wonderful if I can manage to rein in my thoughts.

Wish me luck!!

Peace!

.....feelin sad.....

Today is a hot sunny day (for the moment). The perfect kind of day that Nemesis would've loved. She would lay out in the sun and show her belly to the world. They say that's a sign that they feel safe and loved. I always wondered how she could stand that heat on her. She would just get this little grin on her face like she was in heaven! It was the best thing in the world...

I would rub that belly all the time. She HATED it....lol.... she would make these squeeky noises to get me to stop and swat at my hands. She came into my life when Katrina did, along with her older sister Midnite. I only hoped that they would get to know me and like me. I didn't realize how much I would come to love them.

(MIDNITE - 20yrs old) (Callisto kitty -9 and Lana Mojo - 4)

They miss their sister. I miss her. I feel so sad....and hope we did the right thing by her.

Today is a sad Day....

Nemesis Jaymes Valentino..... 6/99 - 6/20/2009

Our sweet girl had to leave us today. Her liver just gave out on her. She had such an interesting personality. Loved catnip and playing with her brother bunny Ashton. They are together now playing.

Making the decision to let her go was probably one of the hardest things we've ever had to do. I loathe having to do it again soon.

She was loved alot and will be very sorely missed....

~~STRANGE~~

So, sometimes I have these really violent thought, visions, fantasies? I think about what I would do if someone broke into my home to terrorize and harm my family. I imagine myself disarming them and beating the living hell out of them.

I imagine every single detail. It comforts me somehow. Imagining how I would react. Hoping it's how I would react. I would want them to be in pain and to suffer for trying to hurt me and my family. I have no sympathy for people who do these sorts of things.

I should probably state, I am NOT a violent person by nature. Not even a little bit. I have a notoriously loooong fuse. But I do go bananas at the end of that fuse. For example...

When I was in elementary school, (I must have been 10 or 11). I would wait for my older brother after school on the benches. This kid, his name was Chris Huff. Yes, I still remember it. He would ride by on his bicycle and throw things at me. I never did anything about it, until this day.... I was waiting for my brother and sure enough here comes Chris. He throws a football right at my head. I just kick it out of my way, turn the other cheek and all. I'm a lover not a fighter ya know? He has the nerve to pick it up and come at me again! This time I pick up the ball and kick it WAY out into the P.E. field. This only pisses him off, because he apparently wants to fight me or something.

The third time I see him coming, I just can't take it anymore. I wait for just the right second and jump up and tackle him off his bike. "STOP throwing things at me!" I growled at him pinned beneath me.

He NEVER, EVER bothered me again. Not until High School when he asked me for a pen. It was pretty funny.

I just don't like conflict, but it sure feels nice to think about all those bullies whose asses I would kick. I am a sucker for the underdogs and the ones no one ever talks too.....

Now, where'd I put my cape?! YAR!! HAHA

It's been awhile....

I know, it's been terrible. I haven't been around much lately. We moved last week to a new apartment out of the "ghetto". It's been a HUGE adjustment for me. Agorophobes usually NEVER move, but I toughed it out and here I am getting settled.

We love the new place and so does Lana Mojo (the dog). One of our kitties turned yellow though so we are a bit concerned and treating her as best we can. I hope to get back to my creativity soon. Thanks for checking in!

Peace ya'll!