Lezzie Ponderings.....maybe you can help....

Ok, so lately I have been having ramblings in my head. This is my attempt to clear them away and maybe have a little fun. Those of you who follow my blog...(hardy har...) sort of know that I ramble and sort through things oddly. Tonight's task is to sort through some ideas. Go with me....ok?? Ok.

1. Who was your first girl crush?
My first girl crush was one of my pastors daughters. I remember telling my mom about it. Telling her I thought I was in love. She convinced me that it was just a deep friendship and admiration. I WANTED to believe my mom. I didn't want to "love" this girl. It was sooo wrong. Little did I know.

2. Did you ever tell yourself lies to deny who you really were?
Yes, I did. I think I still kind of do. lol. I would tell myself that we were just really good friends, and that this is what "girlfriends did. You know, touching each others hair and that sort of thing. I had NO idea how to act around girls. I didn't want to look at them too long for fear that they would THINK I was looking at them. ie: the locker room at school. I was totally oblivious.

3. Straight girls....what's the deal?
Ok seriously? What is the deal with crushing on straight girls? I mean, heck ya I totally have crushes on straight girls. The problem is when they flirt back. I am in a committed, happy relationship and my honey totally gets that I am a giant flirt. Also she is really cool with my best friend which rocks because my best friend is my straight girl crush! lol....yea she knows it too and thinks it's funny.

4. Am I the only one that thinks lesbians are super-sensitive and kinda hypocritical?
This one has been bugging me for a few days, only because of some of the stuff I've read on AfterEllen re: Meagan Fox. Good LORD! It's ok for us to totally drool over her, but when she says something honest about who she is/was they jump all over her. Feel free to peruse the article on their website. Up-in-arms over the stereotype that they perpetuate. UGH! It's soo frustrating. I am just wondering when we started taking ourselves so seriously? Honestly? I just want to be able to hold hands with my girlfriend and not get crazy looks or worry about getting beat up. Ya know?

I'm rambling now....sorry. Feel free to post your answers in the comments. I really, really, would LOVE to hear some of your stories. My brain is trying to get things in order.

Peace ya'll!